and life goes on...i'm slightly depressed about other, more simpler matters today. well, i don't really know if i can call them simple, but what the heck.
yesterday i realized that i was nearing the end of writing HakuKuchi. I was already at the part where the concert commences, which only leaves two more parts to be written. Then i suddenly got this feeling that i didn't want it to end...like, i still wanted to write more and more with these characters. Of course once in a while i make sidestories and other stuff, but still...although 70,000+ words are quite enough for a story, don't you think? Wah, i feel slightly confused.
But i really don't want to part from Kazu and Ta-ko.
Meanwhile, my drawing skills are apparently hating me right now. Not really -- i just can't draw a decent picture that will not be labeled by me as 'scratch'. but oftentimes my scratch papers tend to be inked and posted on forums for people to point and laugh at. ahaha...
anyway, GACKT! /random
and i still have to draw a map for our storybook, and draw other stuffs, and dammit...argh, i still can't decide between finishing HK or not! AAAARGH...
Also, book 6 of the harry potter series, entitled
Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince, was released last Saturday. And, of course, being the elitist fan that i am, i partly hate (i said PARTLY, so don't go throwing rotten things at me), the fact that many people just started reading the books because of the movie. Or, Daniel Radcliffe and some other actor. (wah, one of my friends started reading the books because of the movie...oh well, oh well.) I want to throw a shoe at every person i see in school bringing the 6th book. dammit.
Same goes for A Series.
I was able to watch Laruku's performance of LINK last Saturday, too. Tet-chan looked so, so cute, although he was really skinny. Ken was being teased by TM Revo and all, and Hyde looked so boyish and handsome (he's 37 dammit!). Yukki had short hair...i liked him with the uber long uber straight blonde hair, with the super thick headbands. he looked so cool. Whenever i see Yukki surrounded by a towering drum set and playing passionately on it, i feel inspired to take up the drums...
GO YUKKI! :D
Current Music: Smile -- Myco (Full Moon wo Sagashite)
nothing much to say...my friend's dad passed away last thursday. my classmates told me yesterday once i entered the classroom. at first i thought it was a joke -- i didn't expect anything like that to happen. but it was true. and she's a close friend of mine too. at that moment i really didn't know what to do or say. all i could say was 'weh' in disbelief. i really couldn't believe it at that time. bakit siya pa ung nawalan ng dad? she never did anything bad. she was also the youngest out of all of us. it seemed...well, unfair, to me. not that i want it to happen to anyone else -- and of course, i didn't want it to happen to her.
so for the whole morning i was somewhat puzzled. the event was too surprising. as i went my way in order to retrieve my things from my locker, i patted the chair where my friend sat during classes. i remembered that she was sick yesterday -- and was sent home. and that was the alleged day that her father died. For the rest of the day, our class was pretty silent, still shocked about what had happened. we prayed for the repose of her father's soul, and prayed a decade of the rosary. i can say that we were all struck by what had happened -- we weren't as noisy as we usually were.
the order of how things went -- as far as what my classmates have told me -- were really tearjerking. i couldn't help but cry everytime i think about it. but i know i shouldn't be like this -- she needs support, and even if i'm not that close to her i'll still try to provide it best i can. when she came that afternoon to school, to get her things for a few requirements, i was really surprised. we came from the IMC and we were walking down the staircase when i saw her, surrounded by my classmates, all huddling in front of the end of the stairway. i wanted to rush immediately to her, but we were told to just go on our way. she was crying so hard. once i saw her i cried too.
I could only try to supress my tears as i walked away, following the teacher's orders. i arranged my things and headed towards my locker. her locker was near mine, and she was getting her things from it. I couldn't say anything. I was afraid that maybe she would cry again -- and i didn't want her to cry. but she said something to me.
'nagdasal daw kayo ng rosary kanina,' she said in a quivering voice. i could see that she was trying really hard to be strong. 'thank you ha...'
and with those words she started to cry. i put my arm around her shoulders and just let her cry, while i cried silently as well. i felt so helpless -- i couldn't do anything to help her. i didn't want to let her go because i was worried that she would cry all over again. and that was it. i let go of her and i didn't know anything else, after that. as far as i know she was escorted back to the gate by her closest friends.
i was still crying when i was stuffing my things into my locker.
Current Music : Mind Forest (Seventh Night Edition) -- Gackt
OMFG! I'M AWAKENING IN THE NEW WOOOOOORLD! (ooh yeah!)I GOT
AWAKE I GOT
AWAKE I GOT
AWAKE I GOT
AWAKE! IT'S SO EFFING ( i happen to think it's too much if i have the f-word capitalized) UNBELIEVABLY COOL! I SOOOO LOVE HYDE, TETSU, KEN and YUKKI!!!! XD
(fangirl mode="OFF") Alright, i did get AWAKE *squeal* and it's unbelievably cool. Very good album indeed. Very, very good. New World (of course) is very nice, LOST HEAVEN nice, of course, Jyojyoushi the best, Killing Me wonderful, TRUST so cool, AS ONE amusing, MY DEAR so so nice, Ophelia astig, Hoshizora so amazing, and Twinkle Twinkle so very cool. I love it. Even though it's mighty expensive ( i won't have any christmas gifts and birthday gifts from my mom because of it), i say it's worth every bloody penny.
I so love you, Hyde. But Gackt will get jealous, so of course i love him more than i love Hyde. XD Nee, Gakucchan? *pets Gackt*
ANYWAY, i think we're going to have this tradition that every sunday we'll watch a movie. it all started with Mr. and Mrs. Smith (which was really cool -- i was inspired to do a Mr and Mrs Smith picture with Ta-ko and Kazu) then H2G2, then War of the Worlds (it sooo sucked), and just this week we watched Fantastic Four. Next week we're planning to watch Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (OOH YEAH! JOHNNY DEPP!!! XD) and next next probably Bewitched...
I'm turning into a movie JUNKIE XD
ALSO, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince will be released six/five days from now! XD Although i won't get it on the day itself, i'll bloody read it through as fast as i can! XD I wonder what happened to Sirius...
Neil Gaiman was at Greenhills today, and Ash was there, although i didn't see her. She got to hug Neil Gaiman though. Now I want to read books by Neil Gaiman, and the fact that my brother said he read Neverwhere by Neil Gaiman interested me more (since my brother SELDOM reads). So I'll try and ask Chi if i can borrow a Neil Gaiman book. Why am I referring to Neil Gaiman by his whole name....
AWAKE AWAKE AWAKE! XD They're going to release a new single called LINK *i think it's released already* and they're going to perform it in POPJAM! XD next saturday! I can't wait to see Hyde! and Tet-chan! and Ken! and Yukki! XD XD XD JULY 16!!!!!! XD XD XD LARUKU!
Current Music: Wait & See -- Utada Hikaru
Gakucchan! XD Aishiteruze!It is going to be my husband's (XD XD XD) birthday tomorrow, July 4, 2005...he's turning 465 years old tomorrow...XD XD XD of course we're going to have a celebration! it's his 465th birthday! ...hmm...we're going to invite You, Chacha, HYDE...*squeals*
Anyway, yeah, it is Camui Gackt's birthday tomorrow, and his newest single with the super long title (something like todokanai aishi ite itanoni whatever i don't know...) oh here it is:
"Todokanai aito shitte itanoni osae kirezuni aishi tsuzuketa..."
Such a long title...why the hell would he come up with a song with a title like that?! O.O
Anyway, i love gackt, so let's move on to other matters...
My drawing of my precious Ta-ko-chan (asazuki tatsuko) from my story HakuKuchi (hakushi kuchizuke) is MISSING! ><>
And Laruku's album AWAKE has already been released...and i haven't heard HOSHIZORA! XD i want to hear it now! i want to have AWAKE, actually! argh...i really wish i lived in Japan...or in the united states -- HanaKimi six had been released and it's released there and not here and everything's just there but i don't want to live there.
And GACKT is not there so i won't live there! XP
I'm also contemplating on asking my mom to buy AWAKE for me (she's currently in HongKong)...but i already asked her to buy me Ribon 8...O.o turmoil turmoil...i can't think! AWAKE or RIBON 6.... I think I'll settle for AWAKE...
Current Music: Vivid Colors -- L'Arc~en~Ciel
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'm so damn giddy! XDHAHAHAHAHHA i'm really giddy today...! I wonder why! XD vina knows why i'm so happy today...because Gackt told me he loved me...and that he'll be coming home from his cd-making just to be with me...ah, my beautiful Gackt....XD
joke, of course.
I'm just soooo happy~! sir macky looks very very handsome this year! (whahahaha ang gwapo mo sir macky! babalikan ka namin sa STC once college na kme! XD) As in gwapo, compared to last year...kung kailan kme umalis sa turf nya, tska xa nagpagwapo...o well, para maloko na namin xa tska kulitin namin na 'Yo sir macky, gumagwapo, gumagwapo!' XD gwapo ni sir mackeeeeeeeeeeeH! ngyn nakikita ko na ang nakita ni queen! queen, samen na lang si sir macky a! sabi mo ayaw mo na eh! XD
Nga pla, nakita ko ung profile ni JUBERT...hahahaha nakakatawa.........
so, it was our PALIHAN today...did stuff and all...tpos mali pa ung lumabas sa bibig ko, something like 'CUT CUT CUT, ang pangit nyo...' hahahaha...i felt so bad....
PARTNER~! (teti! XD) mishu!
un....so un...i'm still unbelievably giddy, and i was also successful in drawing quite a steamy yaoi scene between Kazuya and Yousuke! XD you's on top of him...and...hahahahahahaha...why the HELL am i so giddy anyway?!
Current Music: Angelus -- Shimatani Hitomi
