my friend's dad passed away last thursday. my classmates told me yesterday once i entered the classroom. at first i thought it was a joke -- i didn't expect anything like that to happen. but it was true. and she's a close friend of mine too. at that moment i really didn't know what to do or say. all i could say was 'weh' in disbelief. i really couldn't believe it at that time. bakit siya pa ung nawalan ng dad? she never did anything bad. she was also the youngest out of all of us. it seemed...well, unfair, to me. not that i want it to happen to anyone else -- and of course, i didn't want it to happen to her.
so for the whole morning i was somewhat puzzled. the event was too surprising. as i went my way in order to retrieve my things from my locker, i patted the chair where my friend sat during classes. i remembered that she was sick yesterday -- and was sent home. and that was the alleged day that her father died. For the rest of the day, our class was pretty silent, still shocked about what had happened. we prayed for the repose of her father's soul, and prayed a decade of the rosary. i can say that we were all struck by what had happened -- we weren't as noisy as we usually were.
the order of how things went -- as far as what my classmates have told me -- were really tearjerking. i couldn't help but cry everytime i think about it. but i know i shouldn't be like this -- she needs support, and even if i'm not that close to her i'll still try to provide it best i can. when she came that afternoon to school, to get her things for a few requirements, i was really surprised. we came from the IMC and we were walking down the staircase when i saw her, surrounded by my classmates, all huddling in front of the end of the stairway. i wanted to rush immediately to her, but we were told to just go on our way. she was crying so hard. once i saw her i cried too.
I could only try to supress my tears as i walked away, following the teacher's orders. i arranged my things and headed towards my locker. her locker was near mine, and she was getting her things from it. I couldn't say anything. I was afraid that maybe she would cry again -- and i didn't want her to cry. but she said something to me.
'nagdasal daw kayo ng rosary kanina,' she said in a quivering voice. i could see that she was trying really hard to be strong. 'thank you ha...'
and with those words she started to cry. i put my arm around her shoulders and just let her cry, while i cried silently as well. i felt so helpless -- i couldn't do anything to help her. i didn't want to let her go because i was worried that she would cry all over again. and that was it. i let go of her and i didn't know anything else, after that. as far as i know she was escorted back to the gate by her closest friends.
i was still crying when i was stuffing my things into my locker.
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posted by aya-chan @ 16.7.05
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