I feel so depressed. it's like a part of me was THROWN away.... It's all my fault. They've told me many times before -- but yet, i still continue on to be a fool -- as i spend more time with them...i feel...more attached. And the more attached i was, the harder it was for me to let them go.
AAAAAARGH!
I want them back in my life. I want them back, to bring inspiration to me, happiness, those cute little faces of theirs. I want to see them again after a whole new batch of trials. They...they don't know how much I'm going to miss them! They've gotten me deep, and trapped me in their sweet plan, and they leave me like this. Even though the closure they have provided me with was more than what i expected...i still want them back.
I feel so selfish.
But yet, i still want them.
AARGH, what is WRONG WITH ME?!?!?!?!?! why do i love you so, you damn clan! your grandfather, your uncle...you! YOU LOOK SO DAMN GORGEOUS, DAMMIT!
ANYWHOO, yeah...i got my UP application form TODAY. i feel so ...old, scared and nervous. and just a while later i was picking out courses, i felt nervous. but my choices are: film &audio-visual communications, broadcasting communication, journalism and creative writing. :D Yes, i am picking up after my.......ELECTIVE! hahaha...
yes, i'm not depressed about that anymore! IN FACT: i was able to draw a yaoi-ish piccie! which did NOT look bad at all! *proud*
I will go do my story/comics now!!! *suddenly inspired*
Current Music: Promise -- Utada Hikaru
posted by aya-chan @ 27.5.05
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