i don't really know why, but i really hate it. i don't even know what it is. i just hate whatever it is. even if i'm hating something i don't even know, and chances are you're probably saying that' god, how stupid are you?!' it's still wrecking me inside. o.o I don't really know why -- i just hate something, and god please let me know what the hell it is.
maybe it's because of Advent Children -- no, don't get me wrong, I ADORE Advent Children. I LOVE SquareEnix. In fact, i've prided in the fact that i was one (well i think -- give me this moment since i'm currently hating everything so don't take my word for it -- it's just my feeling) of the few people in my school who were aware that AC was already released. I spent three days downloading the superb movie, tearing my guts out in applying the subtitles, and eager to burn into a cd and share it with every Final Fantasy Fan I know. maybe because i found out that Greenhills started to sell it after i burned a cd of it. ...when i learned that, it's like i felt all my downloading at tearing-of-guts went to waste. yeah, maybe that's it.
OR, maybe my inner-elitist-fan's getting a hold of me again. after all, i don't want anyone spoiling my fandom. i hate it when that happens. hatred takes hold me as soon as i realize that you're beginning to irritate me -- especially when it comes to fandoms. yes, i know, i don't have the right to be an elitist fan, but i can't help it. i'm just one of them. especially if you don't know a damn thing and yet you pretend you know everything. argh, i hate this. i hate this so much. i want this feeling to go away, right now.
or maybe because i'm just a bit moody today. not really a bit -- a whole lot moody. i find little things irritating. or maybe god just planned this day for me to be irritated with everything. and boy when i get irritated --it's a whole new level. this definitely isn't my best day. and to top it all off, **'* *** ******! yes, that's a stupid reason, but i'm that...er...whatever. one last thing i need to cheer me up, and it's not there.
ANYWAY, let's move on: Gackt's newest album, DIABOLOS was released today, and i just downloaded it. just finished it a few minutes ago, and am now listening to it. Passed over the track Misty and Farewell, currently listening to Noesis, which is a whole lot different than the normal Noesis found in the Todokanai Ai to Shitte Itanoni Osaekirezuni Aishitsuzuketa single. Once i finish listening to all of it i'll provide opinions here, in this damn blog.
what else? i want to vent my anger NOW and NOW, so that the next day i won't be this irritated anymore, even though i know i'll still be irritated.
i already vented my anger out in my cwj journal in regard to the costume problems.
it's topin's 16th birthday this saturday. we're planning to eat out after school this friday.
...i really want this to disappear tomorrow.
Current Music: Ash -- Gackt
posted by aya-chan @ 21.9.05
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